Surely you know this,
but on a cool summer day
the tip of a pen,
drawn lightly
across the soft flesh
between your thumb
and forefinger,
can make the tip
of your tongue
tingle.

Do you ever wonder
what it might be like
to accept without breath
the no longer unknown?

What it might be like
to arrive at the end
and discover the world
where it was before,
where it always has been,
to know again
what we knew before,
what we always have known,
to be again
what we always were.

Before this interregnum
of seeming moment.

To take the measured
pulse of universe and know
it is me -- is light.

If I could wing 
into any affair
as boldly as you,
perch on a chair 
all clever black crown 
and silvery flare,
with barely a flash 
of scarlet down there,
I would be welcome anywhere.

Pity the wedge-tailed shearwater,
moaning in the dark daily,
rising unfailingly
from beneath the sands
to vanish in shadows
between the pink-orange sky
and the blue-black sea.

Up before dawn
to lie in wait
for the frigatebirds,
soaring the windward coast,
east to Moku Nui
at rise.

Sitting apart on a summer afternoon,
listening to the singsong calls
and slapping feet
of humans gathered at a swimming pool,
I wondered why. 

At first it seemed an ordinary question,
with an undoubtedly ordinary answer
that I couldn’t quite recall.
I found myself puzzled,
as if I had misplaced
a common word
on the tip of my tongue.
I looked around quickly
and almost caught it,
lurking outside my field of vision.
I was certain it was there.

But like an alien floater,
bent and twisted 
on the surface of my eye,
the more I fixed upon it,
the more it slipped away.

It was absurd to not know why
this gaggle gathered there
to do what they did.

There had to be a reason,
but it disappeared that day
and didn’t come back.
I don’t know why.

Is that the music of the spheres
Or just the ringing in my ears?

A combination of things--
a sense of the improbability of combining them, 
of connecting the pieces together,
the certain knowledge of failure in the end,
and on occasion wishing for the day
when you can breathe it out 
and let it go.

How can it be
that I alone
feel the warmth
of the sun
on my cheek?